Denise Louise Lloyd, age 56, of Butte, Montana, passed away on April 24, 2020.
My mother was… a interesting person to say the least. She faced alot of obstacles in her life. She had me when she was only 16 years old, she battled drug addiction, alcoholism, abuse, and towards the end of her life, mental illness. Despite all that she had a great many loves in her life. She loved music and anywhere she went there was music playing. She had the greenest thumb that a person could possess, I swear you could give her a dead stick and within a month it would blossom into a beautiful plant full of life and beauty. She loved animals, more than people I believe. Cats, dogs, birds, fish, it didn’t matter. I think she could connect with them better than people. They never said hurtful things, they never broke promises and they never expected anything from her besides love, and she had plenty of that. She had a beautiful smile and her laugh could put a smile on the coldest heart. My mother was no saint, and I believe that people revise there loved ones once they pass. That is not the case here. She pushed just about every one out of her life. She was highly skilled at knowing how to hurt the people in her life and she never made it easy to love her. In fact it was by accident I, her only son, was informed of her death. I have always loved her and I know she loved me. But it was shown to me in extremely… unconventional ways. Most of the times in painful and hurtful ways. She was not a bad person, she was not a good person either. She was herself and while I will not try to turn her into some wonderful mother, or friend, I do understand a little better now that she has passed what she was. She was different, weird, outkast, unaccepted. And while we say we celebrate the different, the unique, the people that stand apart from the herd. That is only true to a point. I know myself the pain of not fitting in, of being told who I am is wrong, of not being a cool kid. I know all too well how harsh the world can be when you feel like you dont fit, and how cruel people can be when you dont belong. My mother did not fit into this world. People did not make sense to her. And at the end she suffered because she stood so far outside the norm. But that is all gone now. There is no more disappointment, no more misunderstanding, no more judgment. She is in a place where everything makes sense. And I truly believe that she is in a Infinitely beautiful garden surrounded by every animal imaginable with the best soundtrack a soul could ever want, playing endlessly. Rest in peace mother. I love you.
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